Worry No More

First and foremost pardon my spelling of 'pregnanct' in my last entry. Yeah, i was that worried. thanks for all opinions, sharing of experience and well wishes. Thanks to sikulat who called, just to check how i was doing. I really appreciate all of you.

We did seek and got second opinion. Eventho it's an unplanned pregnancy, the thought of losing the baby (na'uzubillah) was just too much to bear. Kebetulan Iman had been vomitting his tummy out, we rushed to APSH this morning. First we registered Iman in. Dr Fauziah was not in today but the nurse advised me not to postpone things and suggested that i see Dr Ashar instead. And we did. Did the telltale of yesterday's experience to Dr Ashar. It was such a relief when we saw a tiny sac with a little human being inside, with a heart that beats! Yesss, a heart that BEATS! And there's no fibroid whatsoever. What we saw yesterday could have been a little contraction. Maybe it was their machine. Maybe. We are so relieved. Alhamdulillah.

When I was pregnant with Iman, it was Dr Jemilah all along. I had fertility treatment after failing to conceive after trying for 6 months. See, Iman is a 'high maintenance' boy from the very beginning. Furthermore, his twin failed to thrive, specialist care was the best option. When I got pregnant with the 3rd child, we feel like going to GP until the 7th month. But with what happened yesterday, I don't think so anymore. Better be safe than sorry right. My next appointment will be on 27th October 2007. I've decided it's gonna be Dr Ashar this time around.

that's our baby.. with a beating heart

got a new appointment card too.
to replace my 7-yo worn and torn card.

worry

i'm dead worried. went to antenatal check up and here's the findings: -

[1] i am 8 weeks pregnanct, there's sac but no heartbeat was detected. is it normal?
[2] i have a fibroid measuring 3cmx3cm very near to the sac. should i be worry about that?
[3] my regular gynea is and will be away. i have to choose another one. so far i have Dr Fauziah in mind. elin suggested Dr Ashar. anymore suggestion for me to choose? must be from Ampang Puteri since our records are all there.

Pse let me know what you think.

12 Ramadhan 1428H

Al-Fatihah to adik Nurin Jazlin. I hope the monsterous killers/abusers will be captured soon. Walaupun adik Nurin dah selamat dikebumikan, this is far than over. Walaupun saya tak kenal family dia personally but as a mother of small kids, sudah tentu saya pun trauma sama. What is becoming to our community?

Finally, after weeks of meloya, muntah and the likes, I was well yesterday. Maybe it was the kebab I so long to have for iftar. And yet today, I am all weak again. Anyone, please share tips on how I can reduce this feeling. Cannot tahan already.... I have not gone to work for almost 2 weeks and the house is in a total mess.

Anyway.

Remember my 'laman' project? It has started and progressing well. The landscape architect, who came a week later than promised (due to some illness), surprised us when she under-quoted my budget by a good 4-figures! Anyway, I executed my evil plan and added a tempayan, a garden lamp and a wooden bench (We just took the lamp in the end. We'll go and hunt for tempayan and the bench ourselves later). The work started last Saturday, 22nd September. Salleh and his Myanmar counterpart sungguh mengkagumkan saya. Dalam panas-panas matahari, dibulan puasa somemore, they only stopped for Zohor prayer. The rest cuma kerja kerja kerja. Tengok pun penat.. kalau saya yang buat tu, mau cuti sebulan lepas tu! Bukannya kerja senang-senang, siap cangkul licin all the unwanted shrub, gali tanah untuk letak pasir, gali lubang, angkat pokok besar, gergaji kayu tebal... fuhh... Tebby pun tak sanggup. By today they're gonna do everything except the wooden-deck. Kiranya sebelum raya ni insyaAllah siaplah semuanya. Tak sabar...

Saya share a few photos on the first day they started work..

ha, selesai abang Myanmar tu buat kerja, hak dua orang ni sambung pulok!
Ni bukan buruh paksa taww!!
Kalau dah terlepas keluar, inilah kerja saintis kenit dua orang ni.

8 Ramadhan 1428H

Alhamdulillah dah 8 Ramadhan dah hari ni. For me, it's the 6th. Semalam tak puasa. Pagi-pagi lagi dah muntah-muntah. Tengahari Tebby balik bawak pegi klinik. BP 90/90.. lagi sikit drop memang kena drip air masuk. Petang tu okay sikit. Hari ni cuba-cuba puasa. I still have that giddiness and bloated with air. Tu yang buat nak termuntah tu. Dr said semakin banyak kali mengandung, kebarangkalian semakin teruk morning sickness tu semakin tinggi. Nasib baik this is my 3rd pregnancy. Saya dan Tebby tak merancang untuk menambah ahli keluarga lagi selepas yang nombor 3 ni. Tapi tu lah, kita hanya merancang, ketentuan pada Allah juga. Saya jugak nak express kekaguman saya kepada kaum ibu yang memang teruk morning sickness tapi masih lagi sanggup mengharung keadaan tersebut demi zuriat. Saya baru rasa kali ke-3 mengandung.. tak sanggup rasanya. Apapun saya mintak doa sangat-sangat keadaan ini akan cepat berakhir.

Hari ni dah masuk 9 hari saya tak masuk ofis. Abislah performance appraisal saya tahun ni but what to do kan. Saya pun tak mintak sakit-sakit macam ni. Dr kata nasib tak baik sampai 16 weeks pun boleh jadi macam ni. Dan kalau saya berterus-terusan lembik, dia mungkin akan refer saya ke specialist terus. Saya rasa bos saya pun mungkin dah pening sama by this time. Dia pun baru join division kami. Kena pulak hujung Ogos hari tu, Zarid (colleague saya) dah start cuti bersalin. Awal September pulak, Azima, staf saya (indirectly reports to my bos) cuti bersalin jugak. Belum sempat colleague saya yang sorang lagi tu cuti bersalin (jangkaannya dekat raya nanti), saya pulak dah asyik MC sebab morning sickness.

Kalau Ramadhan tahun lepas, saya banyak kongsi menu dan resepi, tahun ni nampaknya sepi. Macam hari ni, pagi tadi saya teringin nak berbuka dengan nasi ayam. Tengahari saya tukar fikiran nak makan nasi bukhara Restoren Said di Bangsar. Lepas tu saya nak makan nasi lemak Mahbub pulak. Ish.. ish.. Dan pada kebanyakan masanya, saya telan sesuap dua, lepas tu dah tak selera lagi dah. Dan sekarang saya membayangkan berapa sedapnya makan tembikai merah. Ataupun mangga siku raja. Kalau macam ni 9 bulan, boleh pengsan Tebby melayan saya!

Anyway.


Hari tu saya ada masak Udang Telur Masin. Punyalah beriya-iya masak, last-last saya makan 2 ekor aje. Resepi can be found here.

6 Ramadhan 1428H

My wish to fast a full ramadhan this year was officially off yesterday. With the conditions that I am in now, I may skip a few days more. And I haven't gone working for a full week today. Unlike my previous pregnancies, this time around is really a test. I am all weak, giddy and dizzy and have the feeling of wanting to vomit all day long. Anyway, every pregnancy is different for different people, even for the same mother! Whatever it is, I believe Allah has plan everything to our benefit. Maybe an easy birth this time around. I hope! I am quite worry about work but I guess I just have to put that aside at the moment. My co-workers are kind enough to communicate via phone about things in the office.

My sister called just now. Due to some misunderstanding (which I do not want to elaborate here), she may not be coming back to our hometown for Eid (God knows when she will be but I really hope things will be eventually settled). We just talked about our children and Eid preparation. To be frank, I haven't really prepared anything. Takde tempah baju pun. Kain pun tak beli. Baju baru pun tak beli. Yang saya beli cuma kuih raya sejenis. Itu saja. Maybe towards the end nanti mood saya datang, who knows. All I know, Kakak and Iman are gonna get at least sepasang baju baru. InsyaAllah. And Tebby too.

Hari ni pun I am too tired to cook. Tebby beli aje kat pasar Ramadhan tadi. Walaupun perut lapar, tapi dek sebab tekak meloya, nafsu nak makan tu tak de lah 'serakah' sangat. Err... saya dah listkan 2 eating-outlet yang harus dikunjungi sebelum saya bersalin, and I am only 6+ weeks pregnant! Walau apa pun, I pray to Allah that I'll deliver a healthy baby eventually and dapat melalui pregnancy kali ni dengan tabah dan gembira.

Okie dokie - nak menghidang pulak...

2 Ramadhan 1428H

tak percaya punya pasal, I did 2 tests. one on 5th Sept, the other on 8th.

Thanks for all well-wishes and congratulatory notes. Really appreciate that. Today, I am 6 weeks & 1 day pregnant. Unlike LimauNipis who chosed not to tell about her 3rd pregnancy, I'm gonna share my 3rd experience. Afterall, during my 1st & 2nd pregnancies, I never heard of blogging anyway! Like some of you, Tebby and I were also surprised ourselves when we got to know about this baby. We did take precautions, so to speak. And with 2 jumping kids, it was (still is) hard to get intimate moments together, alone. So,.. it was indeed a surprised. Semangat Merdeka, as I told a friend. Yahh, August that reminds me of our wedding, our anniversary, my birthday and the day we were first introduced each other. For Sikulat who was the xx person to know, sorrylah Smah. Ingatkan blogger tegar akan baca sokmo blog. The day I posted that entry, she did not browse around. I am not coping well this time around. I tire easily. I have funny taste in my mouth and at times my head gets giddy. And I've been on a 3-days MC already. My motherly instinct tells me it's a boy. But Kakak already have a name for the baby. To her, it's a girl, a baby sister she's been dreaming of having - Nur Sarah. After telling her that the baby can possibly be a boy, she thought hard and came out with another name, Muhammad Syafiq, just in case it's a boy. Iman is still oblivious to the fact but he's been clinging to me, more than he ever did before.

Anyway.

Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan. May we all get the berkat it brings along. Like any of us, I am trying to read Quran as much as I can and not to miss Terawikh. Like last year, we intend to eat home-cook iftar as much as possible. Thanks to the company which lets us go back at 4.30p.m during Ramadhan. We need to clock-in 1/2hr earlier i.e. 8.00a.m. and have our lunch-breaks shorten by 1/2hr. For these 2 days, the heaviest traffic Tebby had to go through was getting out of the parking lot itself! Yesterday I prepared Masak Lemak Ikan Terubuk Masin, Ikan Cencaru Goreng, Bubur Kacang Merah, Telur Dadar and Sliced Timun. For today, we had Chicken Soup, Sawi Goreng and Telur Dadar. We still go to Pasar Ramadhan to feast our eyes and for some kuih-muih. As you can see, nothing fancy for Iftar. Just 'everyday' food. I believe in the terms of 'air tangan'. The more you feed the family with things you cook yourself, the closer you get to each other. Maybe it's not 'air tangan' per se but the activities that bring food to the table. Groceries-shopping together and then together preparing the dishes. That adds up so much more to just 'air tangan', I guess. You just have to try then you'll know.

Masak Lemak Terubuk Masin. Fresh tumeric root, garlic, shallot - blended together.
Plus bruised lemon-grass and thick santan

Guess What?

this is unplanned for, and least expected. nevertheless when it happens, we are more than happy. in fact a little bit over excited....