Letting Go - Lesson 2

Kakak is officially a Year 1 student since yesterday. Tebby takes leave until tomorrow while I spared 2 more days until Tuesday next week.

The registration cum orientation was yesterday. I didn't know it could be tiring running here and there, up and down settling things. We first registered her in the canteen then proceeded to 'Dataran Ilmu' where the Year 1 pupils lined up for the usual drill - Negaraku and short briefing. Then they were brought to their designated class while the parents stayed for more briefing, namely PIBG and j-QAF programs.

While she was settling in her class, which happens to be at 3rd floor, we settled fees on 4th floor, then bought books on 1st floor and then went up again to 3rd floor to clarify things on J-QAF and Sekolah Agama. While I waited for Kakak to finish coloring, Tebby went to book and pay for her transportation to Sekolah Agama, which is RM28.00 monthly. At 11.30a.m, her 1st day was done and we proceeded to Jusco for lunch and bought some provisions. Wanted to buy more camisoles but could not find her size. Bought boxes and small drawers to organise her school items. Went back home, rested (we slept like logs while Kakak herself stayed awake watching TV) a while and then sewed badges onto her tudungs.

Of course I am still worried. I have another 2 days to ensure she does things she's supposed to. Like where to line up every morning, where to wait after school, what to do during recess time (for now, we'll be stuffing her lunch-box with items from home until she knows how to transact in the canteen). Endless list. I even worry over if she could find empty seat in the canteen during breaks. I am one pathethic mother so my worry-list will always be longer than other people's, I guess.

If you asked, this is totally different than sending her to tadika. A whole lot of students (350 of Year 1 alone), a bigger classes, many blocks of building. I guess, from her perspective, that could so so big. In Atfal, her class consisted of merely 20 pupils while in her current school, her class alone consists of 34 pupils. How can I not be worried, right?

It feels like only yesterday that I held her close after birth and now she's going to school already. How time really flies. Without me knowing, I am letting her go, bit by bit.

She asked the other day if I'd still hug and kiss her when she grows older. Yes, for as long as you let me. Or, till death do us part. No matter what age you are, you will always be my baby. You will always be the princess of my heart.

Btw: -

We bought additonal white baju kurungs and kain hijau for sekolah agama. We still have raincoat, additional tudung and camisole in our 'to-buy' list. Having paid the fees and bought the books, I guess our major expenses are covered already. The total has came to a RM50 less than a grand. Phew...