Hari ni, kalau ikut schedule, Iman ikut field trip tadikanya ke Aquaria KLCC. Malam tadi cikgunya call confirmkan whether or Iman was going. Iman being Iman, I don't dare letting him go in a group of small kids unless there's one person can look after him all the time. Yes, all the time. He wonders around. He could get lost and he cannot really speak to convey messages.
I am firmed with the idea that would be the best for him (or is it for me?). At the same time I am filled with guilt. Am I depriving him of his social live or chances to explore alongside his friends? Am I being too protective? If so, until when?
Iman may have progressed from the person he was but still, there's still lots of 'what if's' in my mind.